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Getting back to writing
Sep. 12th, 2011 10:27 pmA long time ago, I was a fantastic writer. I took my life experiences and tied them into an existing story and manage to create a very deep, emotional fan fiction that was over 100 pages long. Sadly, I lost most of that story years ago due to a computer crash - but thankfully my brain didn't crash - so I'm able to recall and share that story still.
That story and my creativity in general was how I coped with mental illness and the constant abuse I was going through as the new kid at a small school. As time went on, things got better and I found other ways to cope with my Bipolar Disorder, including a medication that slowed my brain down. For the past three years, my Bipolar has been controlled thanks to the help of Lithium, Psychotherapy and the use of service dogs. It's fantastic to not be all over the place... but like I mentioned to my psychiatrist - it's... kind of boring.
My doctor assured me that this was normal. It's actually a good sign because it means my medication is working. She said that it wouldn't be that way forever. She said that one day I would get my creativity back and it would be better than ever because I wouldn't be dependent on a depressive or manic swing.
I think it's finally starting to happen.
I am starting by writing another story. It's not a fan fiction, but like last time, it will be loosely based on events in my own life. A lot has happened in the past 10 years, and I have a lot to write about :)
The ideas are just flooding through my head... and I was actually able to write two paragraphs today! Hopefully I will continue the story and maybe get brave enough to post it.
That story and my creativity in general was how I coped with mental illness and the constant abuse I was going through as the new kid at a small school. As time went on, things got better and I found other ways to cope with my Bipolar Disorder, including a medication that slowed my brain down. For the past three years, my Bipolar has been controlled thanks to the help of Lithium, Psychotherapy and the use of service dogs. It's fantastic to not be all over the place... but like I mentioned to my psychiatrist - it's... kind of boring.
My doctor assured me that this was normal. It's actually a good sign because it means my medication is working. She said that it wouldn't be that way forever. She said that one day I would get my creativity back and it would be better than ever because I wouldn't be dependent on a depressive or manic swing.
I think it's finally starting to happen.
I am starting by writing another story. It's not a fan fiction, but like last time, it will be loosely based on events in my own life. A lot has happened in the past 10 years, and I have a lot to write about :)
The ideas are just flooding through my head... and I was actually able to write two paragraphs today! Hopefully I will continue the story and maybe get brave enough to post it.
